Every morning for the past week, I've been driven up from my bed by one thought: We don't have the mortgage payment for February. I have got to find work.
S. is promoting his new law practice, and the guppies are just beginning to nibble. I send out at least five resumes a day, and wonder if I'll hear from my job recruiter. Every day begins, for both of us, with a sense of infinite possibility. Could this be the day everything changes? Is this the hour someone calls and hires me? It's kind of exhilarating. It's also a little insane.
I finally logged on to our bank account last night. I'd been putting it off. I was pretty sure I'd paid all the bills through the end of the month, but if I hadn't, there wasn't anything left to pay them, so why look? I had paid all the bills through the end of the month. But February. Oh cold and dreary month that you are. You are going to be an interesting one for our family. I can tell already.
We have always stayed afloat. We have always figured it out. We will because we're good people. We're educated, we're industrious, and we're not too terribly picky about where the money comes from and how. We will be happy because we're in love, and are loved. We will eat tonight because there are cans of stuff around here.
We will stay afloat, and work and watch and pray. And it will be just fine.
Got an interview!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your interview! And I thought that you were working as a talent rep/scout/something that sounded like something you would be really good at. I'm sorry that's not the case. I'll hope and pray that you find something too and that you and Scott find some security. I know it's tough out there for recent law grads!
ReplyDeleteKelly, you always know how to keep a girl motivated - both as a blogger and a job hunter!:-) Thanks for commenting.
ReplyDeleteI loved the talent agent job, but I needed to move on, unfortunately. I'll pass your comment on to Scott. Bless him, he's killing himself out there to make it happen.